Monday, January 28, 2008

I just keep aching...

My past came to bite me in the ass. Pardon the expression, but it did. I can't believe it's been more than five years and still you make me tremble. One look, one touch and I'm all yours. You smile and then everything around me vanishes. I hate that power you have over me. Maybe that's why I keep on hurting you. I keep on acting like I'm 13. I keep on wanting you above everyone else. Why, why would you do that? Why would you cast that spell over me?
Then time goes by, people just vanish and I still don't care. I still wonder where would you go. Days just melt one into another and still, you come back, you say all those words. And I fall, again, hard and without a net. I keep hurting myself 'cause you'll never love me, not the way I did. Then it kills me inside, I go back in time and find my heart aching, pounding, about to explode. Not a good explosion. The kind of explosion that leaves nothing behind, the one that once upon a time broke me. I don't want to explode with you again. I don't want to feel your hands against my skin, like velvet over silk. Then you kiss me, I go numb. The void your love once left is full again. Just one instant, I burn. Just one moment, and then we explode. You keep going, you keep leaving, I keep staying, I keep aching.

1 comment:

*~PinkTangerine~* said...

And so we will...burn until there is nothing other than ash...the cards have been delt and we lost.